Life story

I found and ad to rent a chateau. But its not the thing i wanted to talk about. I have something i want to tell you. My life story. My father left me when i was eight. He used to abuse my mom for as long as i can rememeber, both emotianally and physically. He used to lie to me. He left but i have some questions for him that are bothering me that i cant figure out and have answers to unless i ask him which i dont want to. I dont know what i would do if i saw him or heard his voice. I think that if i saw him i would break down and cry., Cry like a small child. Because he will still be my father.